Here's my beef

The impending one-week-factory-visit to Bangladesh get postponed until further notice due to the strike happened and it's just getting serious.  Further delayed aka prolonged mental-torture...

Thought of departing this Sunday morning, at least can get rid of works here. Ended up with phone calls...

Saturday, morning - received a sudden call from one of my inspectors: "Miss, the crab all underweight!". "Underweight how much? What's the spec?" "20-60g, Miss. Now checking get around 10-17g. Sangat-sangat kecil. Yesterday ok." "Okay, can you ask sv to get the new lot to try on?" "Miss no other lot already."..... After all the mess in communication, I have to say once again, I have been bullshitted by them again. THERE'S OTHER SIZE. Problem-solving just failed! Fortunately, Miss Yao and Mr Ng just helped a lot. Bien, muchas gracias!.

Saturday, night - a call again. "Miss, A tak mai. Dia cakap dia nak resign!" "What? He didn't tell me about this!" "Boleh tak saya minta D untuk datang malam esok?" "Ok, I akan cari keluar A pasal ini, meanwhile I akan bagi tau D untuk kerja shift malam esok." What the hell!!!  Bad century of people. So irresponsible! I... I.. must get the shit on my eyes the moment I confirmed you! Lesson learnt!

Sunday, morning - Congratulate me. I managed to wake up early again. Thanks to the 3rd call of the weekend. Yet, I still need to cater on it. One inspector cannot take care of two lines at the same time. I gotta admit it's hard to do so, off the record. I shall put up a plan to count on the efficiency of each inspector soon! IT HAS TO BE! 

Sunday, late morning - 4th call! Trivial one. I thought it was a urgent case that somebody indeed asked my inspector is the mega sales still on? Hello, it just held for 3 days, and it's already ended. Your support is much appreciated. 

In future, whenever I heard the phone rings early in the morning, it will definitely get on my nerves!

What again?!

Time to phrase my resolution

2014 was my career year. 

What I have achieved and attained so far? 

Here's the recap and review:
I work hard and 'eat' hard.
Work part is happy and stressful sometimes.
Make friends with you all always good. In happy feet when around them; stress enough when get piled up with papers and hair-pull by boss, literally.
Scolded some people and scared of certain devils.
Spent eating alot luxurious food, visited a few new cafes, become foodie but still remain skinny.
Friends say hell no way and named me Bonnie, as in bone-y. Ah Chuan still is the most welcomed one!
Got my EQ improved quite a bit! on colleagues as well on my loves one.

Did something that I deemed courageous. AHA! I said I like someone, blah. added him, blah. Colleagues tried to put up a date like the wind, and then  just took the wind out of my sails for unknown reason. Feel awful!

Again, struck by my good partner's resignation. Could not stop her work and travel determination. 

Get decent bonus after 14 months of nonstop working, a hard one. Too hard I would say initially. 

Everyone knew it was a horrid year for us. Needless to say the trending topics for Malaysian. You and I can't express in words to console those grief-stricken families and friends. Time heals everything. 

NOW, 

Dear 2015, I pray hard for the resoluteness. 

• 26 is coming. Now happen to feel Two is better than One. Gotta change my long-hibernated status. How can I work from it? God please show me!
• Career is the 2nd. Keep the passion and enthusiasm in work. Another year to go! 
• Reduce procrastination.
• Pluck up courage whenever need to. 
• Wean from coffee, try to minimize.
• Minimize OT. Back off from office at 7pm. 
• Happy and Healthy Families. Could not out of the list!

Done the phrasing in my 1st of 365 days. 

Clock is ticking away. 

Let's Hope and count the blessings in 2015.

Good Night World. 

Strong and stronger

As the song goes 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'....

So this is how it works usually...  when u doesn't get killed by troublemakers, checked. U are strong! Thus u continue the fight and again u survived, now u become stronger... We all should really stop at this stage. But normally this keeps going on til u are the strongest without back off. No way for being weak. But, even the strongest person is not a machine. U will fatigue and worn someday. And that's why u breakdown!

Character-telling is coming!

Just cross that bridge

I know it is not a proper time to complain any, especially it is just my 3rd week. Everyone here I must say is a 'real steel', they could work until 10pm! Of course, I am in the list too. My latest record was until 830pm, which is due tonight. I have never ever thought I could stay at office til that late that I am so hardworking to do so. Fast and efficient is the motto here. Learning fast is crucial, asking in time is important, highlighting the problems is vital. But I am totally in mess and shit this week. Working hours I can feel my heart beating fast too, too nervous and worry to never get a task done on time. For the past week, I almost got nightmares every night on their products, coz you know there are 100++ of products to be familiar with! Who won't?!! 'Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard'. All these ordeal, and I keep asking God why I am the one, for all the mighty God shake, hope I will survive it AGAIN!

Sunday night

Last Sunday night, a night that I shall recall vividly. I was bag-packing, preparing to depart back to workplace-BM. PreMonday-Blue for me along this an-hour- sp-bm journey. My car was running low in fuel, and my mum insisted me to fuel up with dad at local instead of a girl solely upon arrival at BM late in the night. Dad was generous enough to subsidize me the 40 bucks automobile fuel. *saved up 40 expense*.
Just before I stepped my feet out of the door, I kept away my logistics books on the couch, which were deemed too heavy to bring along with me. *started car engine and bid adieu to mum*
At the a stone throw away's Mobil fuel station, I left my cell phone on seat, while fueling up. *caution! Not to answer any phone call here* I checked on my phone instantly after getting in my car, and try to call back my brother's missed call. My bro asked me if I had left anything behind? I said none..
After having goodbye to my dad, I quickly hit on the pedal and sped passing by the road corner right before my house at 60km/hr. I was surprised skimming my mum stood by the busy road, embracing two books under the tiny raindrops. I guessed she was waiting for me!!! I quickly pulled over the car, turning back to my mum... My mum spoke to me through the car window, 'I asked your brother just now that these books are about shipping, and I think u must have forgotten to bring them, so I brought them here for you". I was too touched to even utter a word, by just saying I did not forgot the books, just they were not in use for me. As much as she touched me, without saying thank you for doing this, I asked her to walk home quickly as the rain was getting heavy. And then I drove away from her, shedding in tears. 

I feel regret because the night before this, I was quarreling with my mum by being snippy. I said something that I did not mean it. Sorry, mum. I was wrong... As children, we just can't take for granted for what our parents do for us all this time. 

Simply not ordinary cherry

Please... Please... Learn to pronounce CHERYL! Che~~ryl~~ Is share-rel lahhhh. Definitely NOT CHERRY!!! Gotta put a L after it. I didn't know since when I named after myself a fruit name, although kind of cute name for me according to colleagues. Buek~

Two person wanna speak to Cherry today. And I was the one who answered them with "Huh?! Who?", w/o expecting they were suppose looking for me--Cheryl instead! Ended up I concede to them: Yes, I am. But I am Miss Lim. Fuh, totally abandoned my Cheryl, letting them Cherry me... How come my adorable Cheryl has become some sort of by-product of cherry's awkwardness.

There's reason why I don't call myself Cheryl, but I do write myself as Cheryl in email, which led to the situation above, because... My manager is SHARON. Try to call Sharon and Cheryl, in quick... Two will answer u.
Now they address me as Ms Lim, which I found also like calling Christean (collegue) in murmuring. Arghh. YC ME lahhh!

Another thing, one of my collegues so likes to 'funny' Daphne (another colleague). Pun intended. This is due to her mouth-slipped 'phanie' syndrome. U know... Stephanie (collegue too), Tiffany, etc. So she always DAPHANIE Daphne, even trained by several times!

Funny collegues with still-okay Monday blue.@@

听见下雨的声音

《聽見下雨的聲音》 電影同名主題曲

填詞/ 方文山 譜曲/ 周杰倫 演唱/ 魏如昀

竹籬上 停留著蜻蜓 
玻璃瓶裡插滿 小小森林 
青春 嫩綠的很鮮明 

百葉窗 折射的光影 
像有著心事的 一張表情 
而你 低頭拆信 想知道關於我的事情 

青苔入鏡 簷下風鈴 搖晃曾經 
回憶是 一行行無從 剪接的風景 愛始終年輕 

而我聽見 下雨的聲音 
想起你用唇語 說愛情 
幸福也可以 很安靜 
我付出一直 很小心 

終於聽見 下雨的聲音 
於是我的世界 被吵醒 
就怕情緒 紅了眼睛 
不捨的淚 在彼此的 臉上透明 


愛在過境 緣份不停 誰在擔心 
窗台上 滴落的雨滴 輕敲著傷心 淒美而動聽 


而我聽見 下雨的聲音 
想起你用唇語 說愛情 
熱戀的時刻 最任性 
不顧一切的 給約定 

終於聽見 下雨的聲音 
於是我的世界 被吵醒 
發現你始終 很靠近 
默默的陪在 我身邊 態度堅定

Wings by Birdy

Seventeen TALENT!

Worthy by Jacob Banks

Suits Season 3 Episode 9 "Bad Faith"
Scene description: Rachel told Mike she got into Stanford

Ailee 에일리

Heaven (2012)


Evening Sky 저녁하늘 (2012)

"the rhythm just matched with the movie "Now is Good". Found this song coincidentally after crying over the story"

I'll Show You 보여줄게 (2012)

"show the complete self-changing to the boy who let you down, and get over him. You can live happier and prettier even without this guy"

U & I 유앤아이(2013)

"You and I, Meh. You, who cares?"
Splendor opening!

Yea Handbags～ They are signature

LA Times Magazine recently has featured their new 50 topic on the Signature Handbags (Cachet or Carry), which really keeps my eyes wide-opened. 

All fifty pieces of handbags are definitely mind-blowing for the avid luxury handbags collector. Yeah, I am just excited as them...for what? for identifying each of them. Shhhh! 

50 are way too many for way, but it's kind of fun, glancing at these little cute illustrations with their unique names. Eye-catching at those handbags are totally different with hand-feeling on them! HaHaHa. It's okay, one day, one day I will, you know...~ 

Credited Source: 50: Signature Bags - LA Times Magazine
O/S: Okay lah, at least I still know 1/5 of them.  Meh~ and one more thing, my brother just rolled his eyes while seeing me edited the pictures above. LOL "Women. Sigh~"

Count My Blessings

I was not as early as requested by the author to count my blessings of my very first day. But at least, I am still able to write them now for today. Thank you, thank you and thank you for everything I have today, sincerely and faithfully.

1. I am happy that I am still alive today because I can spend one more day with the beautiful world.
2. With all the blessings, thank you that I am still able to walk around with my own feet, because I know there are still lots of misfortune one outside my world.
3. I am grateful to my mum, because she is too kind to wake me up everyday even though I sleep until the sun goes to the top.
4. I also thank my mum for every meal we have, because she spends her time to cook for the family members.
5. With every single meal and material I am enjoying now, I am grateful to my dad, because he is our sole breadwinner for so many years.
6. I am truly happy to have both of my parents and my brothers as my family because we love each other no matter what happens.
7. I am really blessed to possess that kind of determination and power over the four years, because I have finally completed my University life!
8. I thank profusely for the great friends who assist me along my research project, because I could not have done it without you.
9. Thank you, thank you to my lovely friends in the University, because my life would not be that blissful and colorful without all of you!
10. By reading the book "The Magic", I learn how to show my gratitude to every person and element who and which exist in my life, because Magic only dawns at the person who are grateful.

Thank you, thank you, thank you

All changed, only this

All changed for the past twenty-four years, only this has not changed - the fact that my feet's condition still remain the same. I went to see doctor yesterday after convinced by my mum to have another try, to see if the doctor has the new prescription. 100 bucks went into another 2 new medicine for topical application, hoping to give me another miracle.
I'm tired of talking this to people, after all people just don't give a shit. I always tell myself: as long as people don't notice it or ironically blow on it, I will live like other normal girl. You have no idea how much it affects me, and how easy my life would be without this parasite~ I'm not frustrated with this irritation anymore, years after years, and I was numbed by this recurring illness. How ironic of this parasitism~ Beneath my nonchalance, despair always stirs in my heart at night, questioning the God, why I deserve this. I was once soothed by the doctor, after I entered the Uni, everything gonna be alright... Now these so-called the day I will alright have come the end, and I am disappointed again...

Well, I guess it is just another trial that I have to bear until, until one day... ...

Now that I know. I can made it!

"Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next." Delicious Ambiguity - Gilda Radner 

And without realizing the time is indeed flying, hoping for a really good "Next" to happen... It has finally come to me, it visited everyone else too.

My four-year study just to have this pre-glorious moment before the convocation 

My six-month ordeal just to give birth to this "baby" - 
essence of my "blood and tears". 

Recalling back when I kick-started my research project earlier in the January, hoped to complete it on time but failed, faced so many refusal, encountered numerous predicament, I blamed I envied I depressed I disappointed... until I passed my presentation on my own effort and most importantly lucks did help me a lot.

At the end of the day I am still alive, I am still blessed~

YanChuan you are blessed!

No matter what I have gone through, it has become so insignificant now. I just knew that even though all that time we can't get ourselves but too disheartening and anxious about everything. Good things come to those who wait, no pain that you suffer, no trial that you experience is wasted!

Story behind the scene: when I went to meet my SV for the authorization of my hardbound thesis, I was questioned by her of not seeing her until the end of the project. I was hit by her statement, as I was the one who kept making appointment with her assistant but to no avail. Meh~ then she invited me to sit and had a little chat. Unexpectedly, she loved the colorful photos in my appendices. HAHA. Hopefully with this compliment, she had already given me a long-waited A on this thesis, which is also my last resort to pull up my final cgpa. 

When we were younger

Devoted myself in creating my very first photos-slideshow video.

"Our Journey, Our Graduation 2009-2013"

First video and might be the last video I've ever worked on. 

From selecting the photos at the first day, to the second day I thought of giving up due to some technical problems (whilst preparing my viva and final exams), till the penultimate hour that my video was rejected by my lappie itself, by fb video uploader to finally "uploaded my first ever Youtube video"... the video was blessed.

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye become harder.

Look at all of you, growing from the freshman, sophomore, junior to senior..Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday, sometimes it feels like someone else's memory. Hopefully, our timeline together won't fade so soon. Thanks to every single person in the photos, everyone of you are special, bar none...twenty-three of us, just like the award you have gotten from us. The truth is, I may not cast a role in your next chapter of life, but I do wish I could make a guest appearance in one of your subtitles at least.

To the 4-Year-Memories.

Favors from friends

Imagine if you were like a driver today, you said Okay to every favor today:
*Oh my, I feel as a great friend today~*
I drove my friend to the bank for cash deposit, I fetch my friend to a meet up with somebody in the rainy day, I got my friend to fix her broken car key... anymore? hope no more by the end of today.

Wait wait.... I am not so Ok with all of these today at least. Almost get annoyed not because of  the friends' impromptu favors, but the timing sucks. It ain't happened at the interval hours, but it came all over within an hour! Hit the Toto won't be so lucky me,but today was hit by 3 consecutive favor calls,
and I just finished my class since 8am~
Hate it more when a friend of mine just tagged me as the one who will help others once was asked, unlike other friends who are selfish enough -----> which indirectly means "I AM" suppose to help when was asked. LOL. *kiasu hits me*

Ok, I have vented. Enjoyed the free dinner, so it soothed me sikit sikit. haha. * realistic person*
Bygones be bygones.
P/S: I know I cannot in all consciences turn down the requests, as trying to put myself in others' shoes. That's matter when it happens on you back.

Quotes for me of these days

It's dark because you are trying too hard.
Lightly child, lightly.
Learn to do everything lightly.
Yes, feel lightly even though you are feeling deeply.
Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them.
I was so preposterously serious in those days...
Lightly, lightly - it's the best advice ever given me.
So throw away your baggage and go forward.
There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet,
trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair.
That's why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling.
 - Aldous Huxley.

Left right left

Still remember when we are were in old-school-days, marching ruled most of our co-curricular activities~
Awesome!! if you love to march;
Horrible!! if marching is not your cup of tea.

Baris~ ~ Baris~ sedia!

Squad~ ~ Squad~ Kena kanan lurus!

Dari kiri ke kanan, cepat jalan! 

For me, marching I still like it, but not too fond of it. It's outdoor's marching man~ Nay, no way for me to burn my fair skin. HAHA *just kidding*
Marching could be fun, hilarious and patterned, besides the grim face and rigid body...
I can't imagine how they are trained into getting this precision. Hard work it is!!!


p/s: amazing part starts at 1:36

Another truly-amazing kind of marching. Sure you are familiar with this. The "robotic" march
I was dumbfounded when I first watched this n years ago. SALUTE them!


o/s: their legs have strong stamina indeed.

"watch" this Nasi Lemak

Lunch time, starving now... and suddenly crave for the Bumbung's Nasi Lemak.

I was brought by my friends to dine this I-would-call "Fast" Nasi Lemak at Seapark.

"Fast" in the case of Fast Food as they have their really systematic way (according to a friend of mine) to prepare all these nasi lemak, continual cooking due to the incessant stream of customers.

Their business are quite "amazing" as you can see the seats are spread along the backstreet and also other shop-lot's corridors.

4.5 bucks to taste this nasi lemak with their peculiarity - spiced fried-chicken. (really heavy-spiced for me)

drooling over the photo

Hope to eat this as my lunch, add-on with my favorite lime juice at this second. HaHa.

ok, see if i have next time~

Find a vent

My bursting heart must find vent at my pen
It has been a while... since I last blogged about my "How am I doing" 

Hate to vent it here.
*not intended for publication*

Doing my cumbersome project... nah nah... see you know what I'm gonna to say.

*full-stop *

"What The Hell for all these mess!!!"
"Ever notice how "What the hell" is always the right answer?"

Planning, team-up or what "menage" thing... means getting smoother.
Nay~ it gets tangled up... wondering why it always happens at me?

I thought initiate an action at least comfort me a little, better than zero...
turns out the comfort zone ain't that easy to get in!

I gotta fix it, deal it again.
Now, a week passed by like the whooshing air...
Next week, God-blessed please before I got back to hometown. PRAY HARD！