All changed, only this

All changed for the past twenty-four years, only this has not changed - the fact that my feet's condition still remain the same. I went to see doctor yesterday after convinced by my mum to have another try, to see if the doctor has the new prescription. 100 bucks went into another 2 new medicine for topical application, hoping to give me another miracle.
I'm tired of talking this to people, after all people just don't give a shit. I always tell myself: as long as people don't notice it or ironically blow on it, I will live like other normal girl. You have no idea how much it affects me, and how easy my life would be without this parasite~ I'm not frustrated with this irritation anymore, years after years, and I was numbed by this recurring illness. How ironic of this parasitism~ Beneath my nonchalance, despair always stirs in my heart at night, questioning the God, why I deserve this. I was once soothed by the doctor, after I entered the Uni, everything gonna be alright... Now these so-called the day I will alright have come the end, and I am disappointed again...

Well, I guess it is just another trial that I have to bear until, until one day... ...

Now that I know. I can made it!

"Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next." Delicious Ambiguity - Gilda Radner 

And without realizing the time is indeed flying, hoping for a really good "Next" to happen... It has finally come to me, it visited everyone else too.

My four-year study just to have this pre-glorious moment before the convocation 

My six-month ordeal just to give birth to this "baby" - 
essence of my "blood and tears". 

Recalling back when I kick-started my research project earlier in the January, hoped to complete it on time but failed, faced so many refusal, encountered numerous predicament, I blamed I envied I depressed I disappointed... until I passed my presentation on my own effort and most importantly lucks did help me a lot.

At the end of the day I am still alive, I am still blessed~

YanChuan you are blessed!

No matter what I have gone through, it has become so insignificant now. I just knew that even though all that time we can't get ourselves but too disheartening and anxious about everything. Good things come to those who wait, no pain that you suffer, no trial that you experience is wasted!

Story behind the scene: when I went to meet my SV for the authorization of my hardbound thesis, I was questioned by her of not seeing her until the end of the project. I was hit by her statement, as I was the one who kept making appointment with her assistant but to no avail. Meh~ then she invited me to sit and had a little chat. Unexpectedly, she loved the colorful photos in my appendices. HAHA. Hopefully with this compliment, she had already given me a long-waited A on this thesis, which is also my last resort to pull up my final cgpa. 

When we were younger

Devoted myself in creating my very first photos-slideshow video.

"Our Journey, Our Graduation 2009-2013"

First video and might be the last video I've ever worked on. 

From selecting the photos at the first day, to the second day I thought of giving up due to some technical problems (whilst preparing my viva and final exams), till the penultimate hour that my video was rejected by my lappie itself, by fb video uploader to finally "uploaded my first ever Youtube video"... the video was blessed.

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye become harder.

Look at all of you, growing from the freshman, sophomore, junior to senior..Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday, sometimes it feels like someone else's memory. Hopefully, our timeline together won't fade so soon. Thanks to every single person in the photos, everyone of you are special, bar none...twenty-three of us, just like the award you have gotten from us. The truth is, I may not cast a role in your next chapter of life, but I do wish I could make a guest appearance in one of your subtitles at least.

To the 4-Year-Memories.