YG these days

There were two "Ms T" coming for their probation today... I was glad enough to welcome them as my current "job" could finally find its descendent.

I had no time at all to entertain them as I was busy with my daily task. I thought my supervisor and other colleagues could at least settle them with little simple task.

Who knows when the clock tick-toc-ed to 12 o'clock - LUNCH TIME, we indeed had a small discord.
Seriously?
At their first day of working?
Yup, we (actually was between both Ms T and my sv) disagreed in the lunch time arrangement of who should go out first by 12pm instead of 1pm.
 My sv would definitely choose the former one, that means both Ms T had to go out at 1pm since only a colleague remained in the office.  However, I couldn't think of once that both Ms T would refuse to do so.
I mean as a "new people", I thought new people will always have to "follow" the "old people" 's suggestion. HAHA.
Anyway, good to know that "new people" could fight for their rights too. At least I know I dare not, unless it is something urgent. You know~ die in hungry for lunch.

At last, my sv had no choice but to let them went for 12pm's. We went out almost at the same time, but we didn't come back on same time...
AHA! I could guess it. They had definitely fled away....because of what? We were still puzzled. They didn't even have a call to inform HR that they quit.
Okay, don't tell me the reason you be a half-day quitter was because of a mere trifle in "lunch-time arrangement".
Come on, we have already told you that it was just alternately. Colleagues must help each other...
Or maybe it was all about a "plan" i.e. flee at the lunch hour.

It's Edward Birthday!

For once in the blue moon... i am back to this abandoned-blog. Pity, nowadays very few people doing this blogging-stuff. And the reason I am in here is to idle away my hours and days. Okay, not to say idling my time here... but rather prattling, spinning yarns about my trivia... Ohhh, I know, who cares? XD (WAM, i feel like a moron talking to the monitor here)

Haiz, let it be... would like to start my so-called SHARING...a "yarn" after some 'tedious' intro. HAHA

So，tonight (just happened) initially i should be going out with a friend for short-pants-shopping, but eventually the plan changed with a phone call from SinHui... We were heading to Edward's house for his birthday surprise! HOHO... Long time didn't play this kind of stuff as you know.... yea~ Just after we reached his house, ShuShen came out with one "old" idea... Yea, hiding behind the car and suddenly pop out to give a b'day-cake-with-three-lighted-candles surprise (ok, girls responsible for this part; boys ushered Ed to us)

Tada~~~ Edward got the SURPRISE~~~~ (which I considered as only a little one XD)

What next? Of course hanging at a table with some drinks at one shop. Venue? Tell you, it took lots of time to figure a place. SP ma~ after all, we went to Station1.

hala-ing session started as usual and always until 1am. Friends seem like having unfinished topics for tête-à-tête... (night~~~)

Oh ya~~ no photo for sharing this time... No Zoey equals to no photo....

my pending post...

A long-waiting post:



Seriously, after everybody get started with their own hectic life in uni or college, BLOGGING seemed has become a distant "hobby" to all of us... Unlike last time, everyone kept on updating their blog with trifles or happenings.



Maybe Blogging isn't a trend anymore... for some of us... for me too. XD

All the while I am not in the blogging mood and now I tend to seal my concerns. ( a bit a bit la... small matter still can share share here de; big thingy tell u better instead of writing )



So, I want to share with some of you who still didn't know MY EXPERIENCE in the new year time. HAHA... Yi Qing, Zhi Quan, Chian Xin, Edward and Alice had experienced it!



On the new year's eve, we went for the Sg. Wang's countdown concert. We planned all this on the eleventh hour. Initially we just planned to go to somewhere which are not so crowded. But then, for the sake of the presence of ZQ who came far away from SP, we have decided Sg Wang as our countdown destination. Before the concert, we had our dinner at "又一村" hong kong restaurant, recommended by CX. Hey, good news for the the coffee and NaiCha-lovers because here can refill ur beverage leh.



After the meal, bad news for us pula. We were at the LIVE mini concert but we cant watch the celebrities LIVE. It was so crowded that we can't get into the front stage's area. We tried to stand tiptoe behind the crowd but useless... Hence, we only manage to watch the screen, so-called LIVE screen.



Watching the show at the back there really made us felt a great of anxiety - for we're always in alert mode, preparing to shunt to the other side once they were people playing with the sprays...Some of them really freaked me out!

10 seconds before 0000, we started to countdown.
Firework display get started at the 12 o'clock sharp.


As the countdown ended, it's time for us to seek for a shelter.
The plan of staying overnight at McD was eventually cancelled as Edward punya girl-friends gave their green light to let us stay at the rented room. Fortunately lo.

Something just happened early in that morning....about 4am... something that shocked all of us.
A of group of samseng ( looked like foreign labourers ) got into fighting on the spot ( in front of Na Tok Gong ooo) just at the time we went for our supper. As they fought we quickly hid into the motel. I didn't know how the fight was aroused...but by just hearing the BANG BANG sounds it has already terrified me. And you know what? ZQ has made his maiden 911 call at that moment.

On the next morning, we continued our new year activity by shopping. Thought of not suitable for the both guys... but i think it should be OK. Because at the end of the day, we succeeded in buying at least a Tee. Haha. Just as what you have looked at the facebook...

Haiz, I am getting more and more lazy to narrate our story...... Just some words can depict our day and my day - SIMPLE, SURPRISE AND HAPPY

Thought =.=

Absence makes the heart grows ponder

I experience it.....

Give something off my chest

Last time, she seldom greets me, I tend to greet her.

Now, she dislikes or lazy to greet me.

So, I do the same way around – LAZY to greet her. Not “Hai” or “Hello” word between both of us…

It is an aftermath of “being frank”.

The other day, I was coming back from co-cu at 11pm, washing my sportswear and hanging it at my room just as usual. Then all of the sudden she came back and confronted me, requesting me (politely) to dry my clothes at pantry with reason that she doesn’t like the humidity of the room… I was like =.=”’ You also hang your clothes at room LAAAAAA. Why you can and I can’t?

OIC, the answer is mine are damper than yours right, so you dislike it. Wei, I didn’t let the water dripping from my clothes lih.
And what’s wrong with the humidity lih? I didn’t feel any humid air inside wor, Jen! My clothes won’t affect much the humidity LAL. Plus you are still young, doesn’t have 风湿病.

All these time, I hang my damp clothes at room; you step your wet toilet sandals into room, you didn’t say a word and I didn’t grouse any. Why now only you request me to do that? And in what position you are asking me to do that?

I was indeed reluctant to agree with her. But what should I say other than say OK wor. ( Alright, I have already promised to follow her whim from now onwards. End of arguement! )

Just to tell you a fact that all my course mates and their roommates hang their clothes at room as the pantry is the “authorized place” for Malays to hang their clothes. So, Chinese will rather choose to hang at their room…. One more thing, they don't step their shoes into the room one.

Thus, after she gave out her discontent to me, I also told her candidly that I dislike her to step over my boundary with her worn + unhygienic sandals. I couldn't believe it, I gave it off my chest eventually after bearing it for nearly 3 months.

(Why I mentioned boundary? This is because I have placed a clothes hamper at the middle of room. so to indicate her not to tread over my line. But she seemed to didn't get it at all.... )

However, she retorted me that she has the same habit at her house. SWEAT, here is not your house lih? I interupted her further excuse immeadiately. Coz I was damn hot that time.

Wth....How come I got this kind of peculiar roommate de li?...............

I have to bear her for another semester.....Tell me how to bear her?

Or somebody want to exchange roommate with me?

Back to my tradition

Here is my cheongsam-class-session during Kenegaraan Malaysia. My lecturer has enquired us to wear our own chinese traditional custom for an hour in order to get 9.5 marks without any presentation stuff. ^^

Try my apt in performing

The performance video

扇子舞

our practising coach, Sin Yee (from SP) what a coincidence

New friend, Chen Hui (Seremban)
How I know her? well it was quite interesting.
She is as funny (crazy) as I am. Under my frecuency and same key.
Haha

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have a view on
My room again

my half-cupboard


my bed.

Hai from freshman!!!

So, as mentioned by Zoey at IbrahimKaki, I have been enrolled into UPM, aka "univesity peperiksaan malaysia".

First week in UPM was my orientation week which is called Minggu Perkasa Putra. Mostly, we spent the time at the big hall, attending to various of events. Just before starting any event, each kolej will be having their own "CHEERS", that was our inter-kolej cheers-fighting which I found really fun and interesting. The scene in hall at that moment was unimaginably great!... like having a shout-out war - People standing up and down, moving left and right to show out their very own Cheers slogan. Congratz...K5 is the winner for the cheering competiton this year.

Majlis Ikrar with the Naib Canselor. Every freshman in their best bib and tucker~
Red and white match.

Besides the hall, our own kolej was the another venue for orientation too. I always heard about the rumors saying that the seniors will be playing pranks on the juniors. But along my week in the kolej, I can tell you that is not true. Our facilitators treat us nicely and very caring to us. This makes us felt guilty when we failed to pass up our assignment-getting the 100 seniors' authority.

Ya, we were lazy to get their signatures.

*** ***

A week after that, we started our schooling-day - 6th of July. First day of schooling, we have been puzzled up by the "complicated" transport route system. We didn't know exactly where to drop by and where to attend the kuliah. Hence, we were asking people like crazy all along the way. Fortunately, we were not late for any class yet.

Now, I feel much more better than the previous weeks. I am familiar with the system already. Haha.

*** ***

Talking about the lecture class, my brain seems like "rusty" already. Things that have learned before had been thrown back to teachers. So, I am still in the "adapting period", trying to find back the "study" mood...

With pthe rior notice from lecturers, I will be having my first test very soon ie. starting on 5th of August. It's definitely dragging me to high tension and pressure now because everything like unprepared for me.

For one thing, I am taking general physics in this semester, which is compulsory for my course. But I am not confident enough to score it ayet. After leaving this subject for about 2 years time, I have to regenerate my knowledge for physics from here with my mere foundation at SPM.

*** ***

Here, I stay at Kolej Six which is quite near to Kolej Five where Sin Hui and Mean Wei are staying. Although just a stone's throw away but seems like thousand miles away coz we are different stream. Haha!
My kolej aka hostel actually is quite good and comfortable in condition. Facilities are almost complete if we were to compare it with other kolejs. Washrooms are hygienic too for we hire a maid to clean it up. BUT, it has its own imperfection too. TT

Let me listed out

1)WIRELESS = LAME + SUCKS
my room is at 3rd floor. Ever since i just able to online once in own room. At most of the time, I get to access it in my friends' room or in Balai Ilmu which I consider troublesome to me. I am damn "PEK CHIK" with the problem.

2)"TASTY" DRINKING WATER
my block only got water cooler which i dislike it very much, it's tasted like soil water. Since I didn't bring my own water heater, I am forced to comsume hot water with this kind of weird taste. For the daily drinking water, I am buying via a machine called R.O water.

3)GASPING FOR AIR
As mentioned, I stay in 365 room, 3rd floor and the last floor of the block. Every day, I have to step floor by floor to my room. Fine, never mind. I am going to take it as an exersice. And one more thing, my room just beside the toilet.... very convienient yet troublesome.

That's all for today. Will upload more photos on my life here later.

Bye and see you guys soon.

~~~~~^^~~~~~~

A "brief candle"

So, I have been duped...embarassed...disappointed... I am one of the 4574 "victims"! This number really "衰" enough, because it can't even win a 4D on the next day.

Friday night, I was going back from my part-time job and coincidentally i met up with Choo. She told me that usm's shortlisted result had been released...and she are shortlisted.

What a shock to me! Finally, it came!!!

I went back home and had a check through its official website. OMG, I just couldn't believe it, I got my first choice, which was not under my expectation. Was I dreaming? [ In fact, I am really dreaming of that "impossible"... BUT it doesn't mean that I ain't deserve to get it, right?].

I didn't accept on the spot due to the place of study in Kubang Kerian, Kelantan where I doubt to...
I gave myself a night to ponder.... due date is 5pm of Sunday.

Next, all the thing happened was just like I had been a moron for a day.

Saturday morning, I was in great busy. I sought for many views, opinions and comments from the seniors of usm...via website and msn. I even made abundance of calls to lots of anonymous just to consult them about the study environment there... As I flash back the stuff I had done for 3 days ago, I seemed like an arrant fool.. Was I? Haha. Forget about it....

As I was going to make up decision , someone phoned me in anxiety. She said all in the sudden she couldn't log in successfully.

" What's going wrong?",

"Is there any connection error?",

"Or my computer got any problem?"....

$*&^_^*$#@*&*%%^#

Initially, I was not frantic in worry. I assumed that was a "small matter". Who knows they have any technical problems so our names have been mistakenly eliminated. I was naively thinking about that.

。。。。。。

"Dukacitanya, anda.....tidak dalam senarai nama..."
Haha, they have dropped me a bombshell too.
Although have been tried up for so many times, still to no avail. Same sentence appeared on the screen..
Come on, USM you can't be kidding me... How could you treat me like that. They are really "buruk siku". Give us then tarik balik pula.

I tried to show my great composure in this case..... but it didn't mean that I AM NOT CARE whether I can enter USM or not.
[I mean I have mentioned that I rather like being in KL than Kelantan. However, if the course is good enough, I think I don't have any solid reason to decline it right]

Now, the most and the only important proof we possess is the offer letter, black and white stated that I am shortlisted to study the mentioned course... Planning of going to Penang by tomorrow.

On the next Sunday morning, many people in QuanSheng said they had rushed to the USM to report about the so-called "technical problem". According to the officers there, the shortlisted person is just as the same in the website. If u are failed means that it is the final decision. No more amend.
In the afternoon time, new name list was announced via website. The authority apologized profusely for the mistakes they had done. Apparently, they imputed the dispute as the technical problems by jumbling up the eliminated person with the shortlisted one. This is ridiculous! Or they are trying to conceal something?
How can they ever make amends after duping us like that.

Raising us to the peak, then suddenly pushing us down the cliff (without being given any parachute).

On Monday, things have been gone as national news.
“理大摆乌龙” was the many papers' cover story...
After the incident, they are publicly disgraced and discredited as an APEX.

Mohe keeps reassuring us that they will make sure thses 4000++ students who are qualified be granted a seat in other universities. Maybe this is just an act of pacifying the "victims".

In the present time, I am just waiting for the good news from UPU, my only hope. Yea... very soon from now...
The next time as if any of you get the offer online, just hold it by yourself. Wait until you step into the land of that place, register your name then only you call all your friends and relatives, telling them you are in U now!
Haha... just for the sake of not been embarassed again.

Today is my day

Every year, ever since I was studying in secondary school, my very own day would most probably crash up with my mid-term exams, bar none.

So, I barely had a celebration on it. "Study hardly" was my motto to get through the 0000 time on 15th of May. My 'fake' hand phone alerted me each time I wanted to concentrate on my studies. This was such a distraction to me as I was chasing after the time - doing the heil mary. However, I felt the warmest greetings and regards from my friends, especially those who were brainstorming over the night just like me. On the next day, it would be my nervous plus excitement day in answering the papers...

Even though, friends of my sometimes would have had a little and simple celebration for me after the exams, I felt it was just contented to me. I didn't demand more than that.

I really meant it because among my family members, we seldom have all this kind of stuff. My family concept is that birthday ain't need to boast about, it's just a trivial day. Thus, my mum's and dad's birthday, mother's or father's day aren't my family's tradition to have big fun on it, even if I got an intention to do something about it. To them, gratefulness from their children is just ample as the greatest gift...

I am not a person who have a tendency to show up how I feel at once.

Today, My life in this world began exactly 20 years ago!!!
It dawned on me that tonight was the first time all the years that a gang of peers had held me a very 'standard' and 'enjoyable' party. I was astonised. For the first time, it made me felt like "I can also be a lime light".

Haha... my adorable friends... don't ever chuckle at my confessions. =P

It was a special day in the year, yet at the same time it was an absolutely ordinary day....

This year, a year of determining the future route. After that, we might be respectively going through our brand new journey, in starting the dawn of the new life for the sake to succeed in the coming days....

"An abiding friendship" is the only pharse that we could cast to each other as to wish that we wouldn't forget the days we had been going through together...

Arguments, offences, cold-wars, hapiness, exicitement, struggles, compromises.... all these blended and complicated feelings that we had possessed previously have become past tenses...

From now on, let's envisage our future bravely...... Yeah~~~

Why appeal?

I should have known this outcome...


Yesterday, I finally received my appeal letter from mpm after have been waiting anxiously for 4 days.
There is zero changes to my result. And my dad's 100 ringgit have just gone like throwing into the sea water. The content of the letter is briefly stated: " Your result is betul, tepat dan adil. Keputusan ini adalah muktamd" That's all...fullstop.
What an eyesore to me of that sentence ;3


So what? I happened to appeal for my result as I am not contented with mine. 50 ringgit per paper. I am willing to pay them to remark my papers. But eventually it seemed like to no avail. I doubt their competence as markers. Why there is no transparency in the examination board. Show me the proof! Don't burn my papers yet. I want to have a look at my mistakes that I have done in red ink on my papers. [ha ha, just grumbling]


Frankly to say, on the other day I was appalled at the prospect of having my slip in my hands.
Just couldn't believe the alphabets that appeared before my eyes.
Oh my! Everyone has their own targets in their hearts. When you couldn't hit yours, you would be definitely disappointed. That's what have happened to me.


Sometimes,
Your usual performance in the class isn't equivalent to your measurement in the examination hall.


Ya ya, just blame myself for not trying my best that time.
Lazy is the culprit.
Procrastination is the accomplice.
That's right...


OK, fine.
Back to the present time, I shall feel gratitude for embracing all this.
As the sayings goes:
Every cloud has a silver lining.

Shame

It was an awful day where theft and his accomplice had visited my working place...
It's also my fresh experience where I met up with this "stupid" theft.

He came with his hand clutching some Dental chewing gum and wandering on his pants hanging down to the comic section. He asked me for the Naruto. Come on, it's just before you! Don't pretend. He seemed like purposely asked me where was it, somehow he already knew. So, I simply usher him by pointing my thumbnail, saying "Sana!" which sounded like quite impolite. Indeed, I had bad impression on him while he was picking up the comics, he chuckled his gum's wrappers on my table which really pissed me off! He just intended to do that since he also "bo syok" me! Thus, he had his revenge on me too. I took a squint on him and monitored him up. . ;-/

After a moment, he suddenly walked away with his accomplice. Before leaving, the anonymous accomplice clutched the wrappers and handed them to me, asking me to throw into the garbage. (tong sampah just located beside me) This made me felt like the accomplice isn't that "bad". Haha. I was still watching on their movement as they really looked like sneak-thieves. My curiosity aroused when the gum-wrapper-discarder inquired Miss Chong from revision department for the Harry Potter. Without any hesitation, she ushered them to the teenage novel section. I'm bery suspicious about their motives.

I followed them to the section and pretended to tidy up the books on the adjacent table there. I saw him grabbing 2 Harry Potter series from the rack and squatting down to have a look on the book cover. Next, I heard some unwrapping sound. He wanted to unwrap the book! I took a glance over him again and he casually walked by the table to has a very brainless question: "Is there any scanner inside this book?"
What a stupid man! Asking me this not like indicated that he had an intention to steal the book? Wasn't he?!
"Huh!? I...I have no idea." I shrugged. He was wordless. So, he headed to the cashier counter then with 2 books on his hands. My heart was throbbing, didn't know what to expect next....

I watched from far, seeing the cashier unwrapped the book for him. At the same time, he had already smuggled one of the Harry Potter from the ED and hid it under the junk food racks near the exit. And I still didn't aware of that action though. Luckily, the cashier has realized his sneaky behavior. Thus, she called for the help from other supervisor and they started to take action on him...

After having his book unwrapped, he walked back to ED. Again he visited our comic section. I didn't notice this time he just held a book. He put the only Harry Potter on the comic section, getting a Naruto comic and made his payment at the counter. So, I got back the book and I felt a whoosh of relief....

Who knows? All in sudden, he came back once again...Gosh, what the hell was he gonna to do...! Don't say I'm bingo, HE COME BACK TO STEAL! Without second thought, I quickly put back the book on its place, intending to trap him up. Coming with the plastic bags, he simply grabbed the book and fled. I was froze on the spot as I couldn't believe my sight...
The moment he wanted to put the books inside the plastic bags, he was caught in shame by Miss
Low and Miss Lim. His hole-and-corner affair was revealed and he behaved as if nothing had happened. Since Miss Lim had no any prove so at last she just let him walked away.
What a shame, I should have caught him. I am just frozen at the wrong time... Terrible! He thought his plan was perfect and could trick this little girl like me. So, he did! I was mortified and the staffs there still reckoned I had helped them out in this case.

Something wrong with her

Yesterday night, we were all bothered by a lady with a strain of madness.

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Phone rang and I answered - It was Miss Lim: "Ah Yan, Pleases inform Miss Teh that "her friend" is here".

Huh? Miss Teh wondered who was that "friend".
Thus, she and I took a glimpse around the area from the department. Then, Miss Teh recognised a lady with an odd blue hair-scarf, over-sized sweater plus an umbrella hanging over her arm. What a fashion impairment. ( It's not that bad, but to be honest YES )

"She hior, she is something wrong. Just take a copy of Health Today for her."

(she made a beeline to office)

" What?! Something wrong? How do you know?"

" It's a long story. She worked here before. Will tell you later."

I'm intrigued to know more about her. Anything! ( I was curious with her "something wrong")

As usual, Miss Teh and I treated her as a normal customer. ( I knew she is not. However, there is something good about her. She buys that magazine every month. Quite supportive right?!)

I was just going to ransack the magazine from the locker. Then suddenly I heard the lady talked to Miss Teh that SHE DOESN'T WANT ALREADY!

By finishing her four considered as powerful words, she pivoted on her heels and swept out. Both of us felt helpless. I thought nothing more was expected to happen after she left......

A moment later, Miss Lim came to our table in hurry with frantic remarks. She retold the incident that had occurred at the office. Hell, she had "visited" the office twice and had some complaints about all departments!
[Do you have any idea that how could she entered the office so easily as a stranger? = She stalked Miss Lim from the back as she entered the room! ] Sweat with her!
She tried looking for the manager there. But, nobody wanted to admit. Everybody at the office is scared of her and they even didn't want to speak a single word to her.

As Miss Lim kept blabbering......

All in the sudden a tense moment flickered. That lady was coming back! Miss Lim immediately fled towards the office. Guess what. This time she had no "mercy" at all. Miss Teh was her target now. As she walked through any section at E.D., she grabbed any books she liked and gave them to Miss Teh, asking her to keep that bundle for her. At the same time, she was also complaining about the Perangin Mall's outlet that the staff there ignored her demand to keep the books for her.
After having listened to that, Miss Teh was forced to keep it as not to aggravate her. Just as what Miss Lim has said, if you aggravate a madwoman and she does anything to hurt you, she can "break the law with impunity". Even she kills somebody she won't be accused. Somehow, the only punishment - Tanjung Rambutan will be her final home in the rest of her life after that.

"Do you think she is affordable to buy all these?" I whispered in hesitation. Miss Teh shrugged. Her face turned pale when the lady stood closer and closer to her. She grumbled to Miss Teh about the staffs for she had been perceived as invisible. Only Miss Teh who took her as a "normal lady". In short, she talked really bo bo de things there and seemed rather piqued.

The incident has proven that her brain has fused.

Since I felt rather superfluous on the spot, I escaped myself and pretended busy with my own business, not daring to have a glance at her also. I was terrified too.

It was 9.15pm. 15 min. more to go before coming to end of the business hour. She's still crapping nonstop there with an impatient Miss Teh. She tried to escape too and finally succeede. Haha

Our shop was half-closed and most of the lights have been switched off. And she's still hanging around. I've packing my bag for home, just waiting for her to walked out by herself. DAMN, what the hell she wants from us. Simply buat kacau kat sini?! Then, She was standing there reading her magazine!
"No time liao la, come on lady"

Suddenly came a "heroin" to save us.
Miss Lim swithched off the lady's lighst and she was angry, asking who did that. "Miss, we want to shut down already, please leave here." Then, she retorted: " Haiya, never mind. I can wait until the cashiers sum up all the money." "I'm afraid we can't."
This time she didn't has any excuse, she just swept out from there.
And Miss Teh quickly locked up the door, afraided of she will patah balik pula.

Really Sweat with the lady!!!
She said she will return in these 2 days. Oh God, just leave us alone!

*** ***

Waiting

I wept for being "abandoned".
As I yelled " I hate you! Please don't talk to me~! ", you said nothing.
I felt guilty after that for being no manners.
Sorry~~!
However, this is not your first time to repeat such a "forgetful" attitude.
I really hope that one day you will never ever 'forget' all of us again.

Prelude

People are starting to worry, anxious and quail...about everything in the present and also the approaching unknown fatal day. This is called the Prelude to the general result-revealed-fever. One of the most "meaningful" day I've ever had, bar none. I couldn't imagine what kind of bombshell I'll get on that coming-day.

Anything can be happened?
NO....I shouldn't have said this....
I should rather say to myself everything has fated. Nothing can be altered anymore. I believe everybody will get a deserving result just as much as the effort and hard-work you had put in your study (without any regret). The answer is already in our heart.
For once, after my exam I thought myself really have tried all my best even some papers are quite hard for me. But after I recalled the matter back, I realized that indeed I'm NOT.
I'm not trying my best yet. Some questions I should know the answers, man!
All the last minute work may just ruin me. However, useless to say all this now...it's too late!
As a placebo, I try to say in my heart that "Am I don't deserve any good result after my one-and-a-half-years' hard-ploughing.
I'm not another Miss Smug. Just being more optimistic.

Don't ever regret for making your previous choice-entering form 6. (I'm trying to convince a girl). Let's us advance togather towards the ultimate vision. (Even I can't predict what may happen in advance) Just locate some confidence at you.

Now, we can start to pray devoutly to the Na Tok gong, Guan Gong, Guanyin, Tien Gong for the blessing. Or more precisely "Milk God" as mentioned in the 8TV programme - Unveil The Truth. Aiya, forget about it. I'm crapping here. We are not going to make a last-ditch effort. Aren't we?

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Time flies. Yet I still haven't make my clear mind. (got some options but I don't want to make it as a Hobson's). Yesterday, I listened to the radio about the abroad-studying in Taiwan. It's free course if your result is good. I have had my mind flying to Taiwan and the life I shall have there...I'm 哈-台.
Hehe, I'm just day-dreaming. Sometimes it's against one's will. I didn't have any idea. Perhaps I should put a thinking cap on this matter-to become one of my study plan.

Many things are left undone with my full working-hour. I hope that my part-time job will come to the end after this month (thinking). And so, I can do things I like as well as to upgrade myself. But but, money is important too. (>,<)

Fine, selamat menunggu result! Teachers at school are awaiting too.

No sweat here!

Few days ago, I was really displeased with my working environment.

The steady stream of cartoons, full-loaded with books and also magazines....I am gasping for air when moving the little damn heavy brown boxes. The worst thing is my ankles, elbows and waist sometimes can be twisted.

Poor ah Yan is working all around in SOLO.
What made me crazy and annoyed was NOBODY gave me a hand!

Well, not to say my "sis" ( aka my senior, they all call like this ), I will rather blame my "mum" aka my supervisor. Because, usually my "sis" will stay with me all the time and work together to finish up the troublesome stuff. Unless she is off, then the problem will rush towards me...

I am not grousing for the work-load. Sometimes, I just want to say to my "mum": " Can you please leave your warm seat and help me to lift the cartoon or maybe you can help me wrap up some books?"
OMG, I am influenced by my "sis" who is insisting her "mum" too to work together at the department's table, but not hiding herself at the office.

Due to the matter, she always have a cold war with Miss Teh. At that time, I'll be their 'troubleshooter', responsible to deliver their message to the other side respectively. Until now, I still haven't see a truce between them. For some seconds maybe....~~~

And now my "sis" is trying to convince me that Miss Teh also has her part on these books, not solely both of us. For me, I do the work assigned by my supervisor is a right thing and I don't think I have rights to say NO to her if I still want to hold the job...

Working at a company means we must learn to not to sweat the small stuff.
Heavy cartoons to be carried? Small stuff... Just let it be an exercise.
Mountain of books and documents to be covered up? Tiffles.... I can do it all myself steadily.

I have larned it from a motivational book. So far, I have just read until pg.30. still a lot to comprehend from this in fascinating book.

What I have to do is to complete my own responsibilty as a small staff there.

And there's 2 rules of harmony in our life:

#1." Don't sweat the small stuff"
#2 " It's all small stuff"

just like what Richard Carlson has written on his book entitled the former one.

"When you "don't sweat the small stuff", your life won't be perfect, but you'll learn to accept what life has to offer with far resistance. When you learn to "let go" of problems instead of resisting with all your might, your life will begin to flow. You will, as the serenity prayer suggests, " Change the things that can be changed, accept those that cannot, and have the wisdom you know the difference.""

Emo-ing

我被冷落了~~~
这种感觉真的不好受。。。。。。

T.T

Why nobody listening to me?
Listen to my opinion and my view.

They Neglected me!
Ignored my existence!

I am not trying to be another cynosure.
But, at least spend a minute or even 5 seconds
to listen to me....
I want to say a piece.....

When I realized nobody was listening to me,
I won't leave in a fit pique.


I'll "hide" myself out like a snail.
And seal my mouth by the side.









As I know
"The least said the better"
I get it...

Versatile

I wear my uniform and go for my 45-minutes-break.
And of course, after eating I still have time for window shopping in central.

Whenever I drop by any shop, maybe a trivial misunderstanding would happen there.
Customers may perceive me as one of the staffs of the shop.
What the hell, my uniform has vividly stated a big and red company's name on it.
How come they can't notice it? " I'm not the staff there!!!"

A few days ago, I went to the fashion stalls on the ground floor. Then, an Indian lady pointed to a shity and asked me how much is the price. Am I look like Siam salesgirl there? Really out of their mind. In The store, same thing happened to me....

At master choo, got one time they thought me I am the waitress there and asked me for the empty table. I just being kind and said got an empty table right before me. (actually I wanted to sit there to have my dinner at that moment) . ^^

Haiya, I think I have a salesgirl or waitress potential apperance kut ( for temporary only ). No wonder people like to ask me to serve them.
I am the versatile worker. I can promote food la, books la, shampoo la amd even clothes... Haha.

I Am Your Listener?

Strangely to say, two people who are still not really in rapport with me came before me and then pilipala pilipala told me their "story respectively...

I have become their good listener. Ya~~~

One told me that she was in the bad mood because of her insincere friendship with a pretended friend.
She was piqued to discover that she hadn't been invited to her best friend's birthday party! The worse thing is the circumstance on how she know the truth - she realized this after giving her a wishing phone call. She wondered why so noisy at the phone. Hence, she asked what her friend was doing right there, then only her friend started to ask her for joining the party.

The incident sounds very familiar to me....


Then, another person told me about her affair with her boyfriend. "I'm just not that into him", she told me this. So, she planned to make friend with other guy first, a future-KFC-outlet-manager who is much more better than her current boyfriend, who is just a workman in factory ( now unemployed ).
I teased her how could she being so unfaithful, "step on two sampan". She said it's all his fault. She sought a job for him but he'd been so picky. So, she felt insecure with a an unemployed man.

Listening to their story, I didn't give any placatory remarks to them. Just being a recorder! Haha...

Seriously, I won't simply tell my own story to half-strangers. For some people like both of them, they are happy to choose to share their story with half-stranger like me. ^^ Maybe I should learn from them instead.
Remember, Pent-up emotion isn't good to health.

Determination!

Where is my determination?!

DETERMINATION!
DETERMINATION!
DETERMINATION!
DETERMINATION!
DETERMINATION!
arghhhhh!!!!

I can definitely do it.
Don't let them down.
Ya,
all I have to do is take more care on it and endure it.
I have resigned to my own fate since 14 years ago.
Everything seems hopeless to me...
Now,
a slender of hope still flickering before me...***
This may be is my last chance and the ultimate remedy...
Otherwise, I have to wait for another new invention.
I am desperate to own a flawless one.
I have to realize it in as soon as possible!
I don't want to suffer from that again and again.
It made me feel shame~~ my pent-up frustration for years' time.

~It's just a pep talk for Cher to keep on struggling~

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