A disheartening day

"Many of you scored, only few of you not. Congratulations for those who did well; but for those who didn't, no need to feel disheartened... as you still have chance to score at other parts."

Discouraging figure when I gazed at the page. Double disheartening news when my Prof reiterated the uploaded online-results.
Thought of not doing well, but wouldn't expect to be that "worse". "Worst" feeling seeping in my veins when friends did so well, but I didn't. I must say just too well!! Feel terrible when I just magnified the the matter.
Sense of jealous? I had but major problem was at me. How to say (self-accusing)?
I misunderstood the questions, I did not interpret the questions well enough, I took for granted my answers was good enough, I thought too much, I did not ask... >.<

I seldom talk about my result here. Was writing this as a pep talk for me before having another test soon... two weeks later from now.
Recharging, recharging my confidence... Hard work may not conquer all, but I must refresh my mind, trying to complete all the procrastinated work as well as trying to get this fading from my sight and mind.

An awful test

It was really awful for me to answer the physics paper since i m quite strange with that course. Shit!!!
30 multiple choices questions...but i could answer only about half of them, or maybe less than that. Coz I didn't have ample time to read the last 6 questions when the examiner asked us to stop answering. So, i was just playing "shooting". A B C and D.... ting tong diang.
I thought i was the only one who played this technique. Who knows almost all of my coursemates were having the same strategy as me. Gosh!

Due to my lecture group has disappointed the Dr. with the lame result of the highest is only 16 per 30 and the lowest can be as only 1 per 30.... he is giving us another test called test1b! What a surprise!
Haha, resit the paper for the same covered topics with the more easier one this time, said the Dr.
Hope we wont let him down for second time... wish me luck! =P

Why appeal?

I should have known this outcome...


Yesterday, I finally received my appeal letter from mpm after have been waiting anxiously for 4 days.
There is zero changes to my result. And my dad's 100 ringgit have just gone like throwing into the sea water. The content of the letter is briefly stated: " Your result is betul, tepat dan adil. Keputusan ini adalah muktamd" That's all...fullstop.
What an eyesore to me of that sentence ;3


So what? I happened to appeal for my result as I am not contented with mine. 50 ringgit per paper. I am willing to pay them to remark my papers. But eventually it seemed like to no avail. I doubt their competence as markers. Why there is no transparency in the examination board. Show me the proof! Don't burn my papers yet. I want to have a look at my mistakes that I have done in red ink on my papers. [ha ha, just grumbling]


Frankly to say, on the other day I was appalled at the prospect of having my slip in my hands.
Just couldn't believe the alphabets that appeared before my eyes.
Oh my! Everyone has their own targets in their hearts. When you couldn't hit yours, you would be definitely disappointed. That's what have happened to me.


Sometimes,
Your usual performance in the class isn't equivalent to your measurement in the examination hall.


Ya ya, just blame myself for not trying my best that time.
Lazy is the culprit.
Procrastination is the accomplice.
That's right...


OK, fine.
Back to the present time, I shall feel gratitude for embracing all this.
As the sayings goes:
Every cloud has a silver lining.

It's Unfair!

OK, old issue was coming again... Cheating at exam, this time was STPM Trial. I am wordless now since most of my classmates who did that got the "good" result. You must be complacent to achieve this. But, I call this sxxx coz it wasn't very proud for YOU to get this result through improper way, friends! Somehow, being astray to attain your goal just make me look down at you all the way, you didn't deserve our respect at all...! I just can't endure this kind of attitude. I can say that only remain half of us are totally honest in the exam. Techniques they used are so keng to the extent that even toilet has become one of the accomplice. Honesty ain't praise-worthy. As long as you get the good result, all the things happened during exams are meaningless......

Be Sickened By "Pretending"

The incident happened once again. 1st time, 2nd time..... and then this time.....Why keeping to do these?! I think science2's should know what I mean. I am not intending to write about this initially coz I thought it is useless and the thing has occurred. However, after she asked me my marks today, I began to feel sick about it... After doing all these, she can still pretend like nothing had happened, trying hard to disguise herself, hiding her mistakes. SICK! I really wondered if u want to do something like that, why still want to "announce" it to the class, especially us....! Afraid of people don't know what are you going to do in the exams ar? Oooo, this is a kind of informing hor? So that, we wouldn't' tell others la.... i see i see.

Ok fine... You did yours and I don't care. It's your business. We cannot say anything. SPEECHLESS :X. But never talk it loud at the class la. You just made us more " beh syok " in you. ((" wei, afterwards let me see your answers har? " I really thought you were just joking. cos i believe u won't do that))

At the time, I know what are you trying to do is just an atonement, perhaps, fixing your mistakes, repairing your image...sealing our big mouth.... Come on, ain't need to pretend.... Somehow, it's not a " 不能说的秘密 " anymore.... Tell you what, I won't recognised this kind of plp even he got the highest. So are the others. Don't you want plp perceive you in this way?

Frankly, I think you should discard this habit before you are filled with remorse. ( I had asked this for 2nd time ) I am advising you as a friend...really, never to do this again. Maybe you think it isn't a big deal to you, but it is a matter of principle...I am not trying to be lofty here. If after you read through this, you get annoyed, I will say : "Sorry, I just voice out my mind"

Sheer " Luck "

Finally, the last day of the exam weeks...I'm suppose to happy about it but I just can't. Throughout the final exams, i discover many things that i don't much like about...However things happened are all due to our own attitude. Maybe if I voice out my discontent, I will be facing a lot of conflicts or abundance of excuses. So, hopefully those who did the wrong things should be filled with remorse for having dishonest...{I think they have do so...} Wish they will do more better in the future...:)