FLY

An inspiring doodle from Doodle Everyday.

Credit to Mr Lim HS for such a cute "flying maple".

When you have found that special thing, you are flying without wings...

Life with no regrets, keep moving on...

爱的等飞行日记 . 心灵航班启程号. 目的地: 不限 . 启航时间: 现在

Growing into another person...

At home, you tend to be dependent on parents;
Away-from-home, you tend to be dependent on friends.

Uh, ain't not trying to translate it from the the Chinese sayings of “在家靠父母，出外靠朋友”.
but was trying to say it's a tendency to be dependent instead of being independent when there's always somebody for you~

Granted, it's always good to have somebody to count on whenever you need one the most, but when there's no one for you to count on, how are you going to cope with the "I-am-at-the-loss-what-to-do-next" drama?

A story of three years ago - 27th of June 2009 :-
I remembered the day whereby my parents indeed let a van to fetch me all along from my hometown to my beloved uni. That time, I just couldn't imagine if I was asked to come all by myself without my parents, as I had  never well-prepared to be independent yet. *Shame?Lame?*
But then after everything was settled down, with no parents by my side, I have to face things all by myself. Dramatic change huh?
There. The learning process begins.

I have quite a high expectation on myself, yet I gotta admit that I was (or suppose used to be "I am") having minor DPD (Dependent Personality Disorder) sometimes...
However, living about 200 miles distant from the HSH is a powerful factor that could greatly and mentally alter you.

Time flies...
Sometimes, I just hate to be one of it as I prefer to have a company by my side when doing something, but gradually and eventually I would have learned (so much) and have grown up (enough) to take over things on my tod.

Courage. Initiative. The values that I need to extract from others, somewhere and use on me myself.



Note: being independent is different from being a loner...

Photo credit to Jonas Fornerod in his Alone's photography series. 

Blue Blue 的～

"I feel my mind in ease tonight~~ "

tuning in 988 and become one of the "night听族"...

"I feel cozy tucked up in my bed~~" 

listening to serenades, DJ's words in abundance, that made me having some insights into woes I faced, we are facing them always. 

Tonight theme:

"如果能重来..." what would you say about it...?

someone replied: I hope "tomorrow" could be undone.
another listener replied: I wish I could go back to the days when I learned to smoke from wicked friends.
etc etc...

I was thinking if something in the past could be undone, what would it be?
I was seriously pondering about them, but all I could think is some "I don't want to format my window, I don't want to install these nonsense that caused blue screen or malwares etc.." all were unimportant matters... because I know it's impossible to undo things that have become a history.

as the DJ said, if we could undo our "past tenses", we would not be able to learn from the past, ponder over the incident as we can always undo our action like the computer does - "Ctrl + z" when we regret.
Learning not to repeat the same action...is just important. Our action triggers the motion in the future and that's only happens once; and if tomorrow can be undone, we would take for granted, do things recklessly.

If really I was given a chance to amend something in the past, that would be my Choice after the year of 2006... okay, that's just effective for "IF" notion...
after all, I still am glad with the present... even with some minor regrets, I choose to live on it as I have already learned from them...

Help or not to help

I don't usually do this.
I don't like to blow my own trumpet after doing good deeds.
However, when you treat people good, you act good to people, these people will be greedier and go too far away, farther than you could imagine.

That's made me vacillated between mercy and selfish.

and being mercy, I won't lose anything for helping, people may just take you for granted. You take a deep breath, everything will be okay than ever because you do something great this time.

and being selfish, I won't lose anything too, it may just on my conscience. I rethink the action, and I feel shame for being that person.

Everyone has his/her own limit.
Sometimes we could help; sometimes we couldn't;
Sometimes we do want to help; sometimes we don't.
Sometimes we choose to help, sometimes we choose not to.

Option is all up to you. No right or wrong.
Friends help you, you help friends back.
I did not owe anybody, so do you.
I owe my family only.

Put it in a...

...NUTSHELL,

*recently being infected by this nutshell allergen. Thanks to the person who understand what I mean*

 no "3/4 quarter speech" to show here, just...

Wait a minute, I am officially released from the "six-month sentence". 815 Hooray~

Here are five lessons I have learned via my internship:

1. Frugality.

You know la... Business, everything is about the money. So we have to do our best to save, save and save. All we have to do is using our "creativity" to curtail the spending. For typical one, reuse the paper or so called "fully use" the blank area. Next, amendment in the labeling. We can use different blank white sticker to hide the wrong part. There are etc etc n etc. Oh ya, better don't simply on extra air-conditioner and do OT... Manager will confront you. 

2. Mum's the word.

Myself had failed to do this in the first place as I told somebody my allowance and went too far about my background. But now, I learn to keep mum about myself. Never ever simply share your information with strangers, not until you see him or her through and through. Brilliant move?! Somebody taught me this in the org. 

3. Subtle observer

I really learned this even though I know I  have already had subtle mind. HAHA * narcissism* If you want to bad-mouth about somebody, better watch out! Devil might be spoken. Also, when you wanna sneaking around, beware of the CCTV. Eating snake must have the limit too. Last tip: you should have in-hand information to formulate whose ass to kiss. *Don't be judgy as it's a fact of living*

 4. Nod your head

Nod your approval no matter what. "Right" is always by your boss's side. You will not stand a chance to say: "Boss, I think you....". Nah nah nah, triple cross "XXX". But then if you have a gut to say it or beh tahan liao, dare it. Good Boss might listen to you but it is on own your own peril. I tried once, to oppose Madam's perception regarding the products' problem, and there's no way for me to retort. Turns out I treated the subsequent problems nonchalantly.

5.  Fierce

I could not fierce with strangers. I was asked by the supervisor to bark at the operators whenever they act wrongly. Frankly I can be fierce in front of family, but just could not imagine myself bark like a fierce dog in front of foreigners coz I am shy. Most of the time, I just reiterated my comment softly and passed them. LAME. Still, I should really equip myself with this kind of "quality" in the near future. BE FIERCE!