Today is my day

Every year, ever since I was studying in secondary school, my very own day would most probably crash up with my mid-term exams, bar none.

So, I barely had a celebration on it. "Study hardly" was my motto to get through the 0000 time on 15th of May. My 'fake' hand phone alerted me each time I wanted to concentrate on my studies. This was such a distraction to me as I was chasing after the time - doing the heil mary. However, I felt the warmest greetings and regards from my friends, especially those who were brainstorming over the night just like me. On the next day, it would be my nervous plus excitement day in answering the papers...

Even though, friends of my sometimes would have had a little and simple celebration for me after the exams, I felt it was just contented to me. I didn't demand more than that.

I really meant it because among my family members, we seldom have all this kind of stuff. My family concept is that birthday ain't need to boast about, it's just a trivial day. Thus, my mum's and dad's birthday, mother's or father's day aren't my family's tradition to have big fun on it, even if I got an intention to do something about it. To them, gratefulness from their children is just ample as the greatest gift...

I am not a person who have a tendency to show up how I feel at once.

Today, My life in this world began exactly 20 years ago!!!
It dawned on me that tonight was the first time all the years that a gang of peers had held me a very 'standard' and 'enjoyable' party. I was astonised. For the first time, it made me felt like "I can also be a lime light".

Haha... my adorable friends... don't ever chuckle at my confessions. =P

It was a special day in the year, yet at the same time it was an absolutely ordinary day....

This year, a year of determining the future route. After that, we might be respectively going through our brand new journey, in starting the dawn of the new life for the sake to succeed in the coming days....

"An abiding friendship" is the only pharse that we could cast to each other as to wish that we wouldn't forget the days we had been going through together...

Arguments, offences, cold-wars, hapiness, exicitement, struggles, compromises.... all these blended and complicated feelings that we had possessed previously have become past tenses...

From now on, let's envisage our future bravely...... Yeah~~~

Let others be glorious

Here, a simple way to keep away the trifles from overtaking your life which I have learned...

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Our need for excessive attention is that ego-centered part of us that says, "Look at me. I'm special. My story is more interesting than yours." It's that voice inside of us that may not come right out and say it, but that wants to believe that "my accomplishments are slightly more important than yours."

The ego is that part of us that wants to be seen, heard, respected, considered special, often at the expense of someone else. It's the part of us that interrupts someone else's story, or impatiently waits his turn to speak to that he can bring the conversation and attention back to himself.

To varying degrees, most of us engage in this habit, much to our own detriment!

When you immediately five in and bring the conversation back toward you, you can subtly minimize the joy that person has in sharing, and in doing so, create distance between yourself and others.

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The next time someone tells you a story or shares an accomplishment with you, notice your tendency to say something about yourself in response.

Although it's a difficult habit to break, it's not only enjoyable but actually peaceful to have the confidence to be able to surrender your need for attention and instead share in the joy of someone else's glory.

Rather than jumping right in and saying, "once I did the same thing" or "Guess what I did today." bite your tongue and notice what happens. Just say, "that's wonderful," or "Please tell me more," and leave it at that. The person you are speaking to will have so much more fun and, because you are so much more "present", because you are listening so carefully, s/he won't feel more relaxed around you, making him or her more confident as well as more interesting.

You too will feel more relaxed because you won't be on the edge of your seat, waiting your turn to be glorious too.

Ironically when you surrender your need to hog the glory, the attention you used to need from other people is replaced by a quiet inner confidence that is derived from letting others to have it.

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From the excerpt of Richard Carlson's DSTSS.

So, what are your view now...? be a cynosure or be "meek"? you choose one...

Malapropism

So, I have become one of the Miss Malaprops these days... HAHA
And ironically, thanks for giving me an 'honour' chance to be crown. XD

Actually, I didn't get to know this word until I have read it in a book entitled Do You Wear Suspender? The Wordy Tales of Eh Poh Nim by Lydia Teh.
In the book, there are lots of idioms that I had never read and heard before. The author helps the readers to learn new vocab and idioms by spinning yarns in the most interesting ways. It was quite fun even though I had only read a few pages of this book by sheer chance. She uses Miss Eh Poh Nim as her character in the book who like to speak idiomatic English.

If you are interested, you can
Check out the review of the book here and also here.

Why appeal?

I should have known this outcome...


Yesterday, I finally received my appeal letter from mpm after have been waiting anxiously for 4 days.
There is zero changes to my result. And my dad's 100 ringgit have just gone like throwing into the sea water. The content of the letter is briefly stated: " Your result is betul, tepat dan adil. Keputusan ini adalah muktamd" That's all...fullstop.
What an eyesore to me of that sentence ;3


So what? I happened to appeal for my result as I am not contented with mine. 50 ringgit per paper. I am willing to pay them to remark my papers. But eventually it seemed like to no avail. I doubt their competence as markers. Why there is no transparency in the examination board. Show me the proof! Don't burn my papers yet. I want to have a look at my mistakes that I have done in red ink on my papers. [ha ha, just grumbling]


Frankly to say, on the other day I was appalled at the prospect of having my slip in my hands.
Just couldn't believe the alphabets that appeared before my eyes.
Oh my! Everyone has their own targets in their hearts. When you couldn't hit yours, you would be definitely disappointed. That's what have happened to me.


Sometimes,
Your usual performance in the class isn't equivalent to your measurement in the examination hall.


Ya ya, just blame myself for not trying my best that time.
Lazy is the culprit.
Procrastination is the accomplice.
That's right...


OK, fine.
Back to the present time, I shall feel gratitude for embracing all this.
As the sayings goes:
Every cloud has a silver lining.